Don't make me carry your shit around.

Sometimes you're right. I fucking really don't care anymore. I'm tired of your unreasonable and half-baked accusations that I don't care. I'm tired of proving to you that I do. You don't remember any of the good stuff I've done for you anyways. The fact that you can make such tiresome and childish whims just goes to show that you've never thought through the life you've had. The goodness in it, and how life would be like when I'm gone. Fuck this alright, I'm SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING LIKE EVERY LITTLE THING THAT UPSETS YOU IS MY FAULT. 

I don't need this kinda shit from you, especially from you. Not after what I've done for you. And if you're still asking yourself what so great about the things I've done for you, then please really, stop wasting both our time. 

You are just about the most insecure girl I've ever met. And stop blaming it on the fact that you want to rely on someone for life. These are separate ideas altogether. I can be the most reliable person on earth and you will STILL feel LONELY, INSECURE and UNLOVED. 

Do you really want to know why I take so long to reply to such messages??? To stop myself from getting pissed off and saying mean stuff to you. The last straw was asking me to fly home early. OMG. Obviously zero thinking there, zero memory activation. And you say that I don't remember important stuff. 

Face it. Just because you tend to feel more insecure and lonely than other girls, DOES NOT equate to me being uncaring and un-loving. Now is the perfect time to think your life over, because I'm not going to let you insecurities weigh me down. I have a great family, great education, great results, great fencing potential and great friends. All the time I have given you, is all the time I can give you. My results are NOT going to suffer just because someone else's boyfriend has done "blah blah blah" for your friend and I have not. Bullshit, feed that conversation to the dogs. Firstly I can just about think of as many things someone else's girlfriend has done for my guy friends that you've not done for me. Secondly, why should I care? Its not as if they can be as good a medical student as I am. Yea I say this with pride. Nobody is on par with me until I say so myself. 

Next time I suggest you think twice before starting a conversation with yet another "You don't care!", before I really don't.