The Mushroom and a very naughty Jasmin.

Wow, the past few nights all felt like one very long day. Went clubbing on Wed Mambo night and Friday night at The Butter Factory.... tiring man..

Every day see hot girls until eyes dry nose bleed arms pain cos kena pinched by Jasmin.

On Wed night, went to Zouk with the Monash peeps and some other people. It was some of the Monash peeps first times clubbing. The night wasn't as fun as the last time I went with the Officer Cadets. Maybe guys just know how to have more fun hahahaha. But it looked like Huilin, Chunyi and Sarah enjoyed themselves, so i guess it was worth it. I've always liked mambo music, but after last Friday's R&B at Butter Factory, maybe I've taken on a liking to R&B too. Hmmm.

Saw my ex at Zouk. Hmmm. She was hotter than I expected her to be. Damn. Dances even better than before. haha But screw it, shes with some fugly ABC now and I've got Jasmin so I own her hahahahaha. Ooooh Jasmin was jealous that I kept looking at her the whole night. Zzzz possessive little thing. 1.) Haven't seen her for so many years already, just curious la. 2.) If Alex were to be there you'll be staring at him too! 3.) Why are you so jealous, you're the one I'm kissing now! 4.) You're fatter than her and I love fat fugly things.

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Looking at my ex cannot, dance with some total stranger and going for a drink with him holding his hand can.   O.o   Something is not right here...

Old feelings of jealousy are flooding back into me. Usually after feeling this way, I would always bring up all sorts of childish and petty arguments to get my ex to make things up with me. But I was possessive and childish then, and she couldn't take it in the end. Being a little more mature now and less possessive, somethings I let pass, cos I'm not gonna go down in history books as a selfish person. Some hurtful and spiteful things I won't say, cos I know very well I can hurt deeply using words, and I treasure the patience and tolerance I've learnt to develop over the years.

But just cos I don't wanna argue with you, doesn't mean I can't, and it definitely doesn't mean that nothing is wrong. Its just that I never wanna say such hurtful things I can't take back. So I guess I'll use silence and time to reason with you, and perhaps when you understand how I think better I'll let you in a little more.

For now, know that I love you, and to toy with you is the furthest thing from my mind. Instead of seeing me as uncaring and mean, perhaps try to understand why I did those things, and things I could have done on impulse but didn't do. Then, maybe you can take comfort in how much I actually love you.