My mummy is 51 years old!

Lol mummy's birthday coming up soon! Time to go about fixing up my present.

Results Galore! Did well for everything except formative OSCE! Luckily its formative! And it really sucks, I missed the fourth quartile by 1 mark. ZZZZ I've never gotten something even close to the third quartile before. 

Started on the CBP powerpoint presentation, so that's good. 

Wished I did better for the end-of-semester paper, but oh wells, I did do pretty well already. I just felt that I should have scrapped up something 100 and above.

Ah and my sister tried fencing yesterday! Seems like she enjoyed it, she's coming back for more on Friday I think. Mmmm And I was so flat out after fencing yesterday, even 8 hours of sleep that night didn't really help me feel better. Good stuff, got to use the club's only pistol grip foil. Insane la, it was so nice and delicate. Hahah and I've still got the moves! LOLOL.

Boyfriend Replacement Therapy.

Apparently having a boyfriend also means free company whenever you have excess time. Very easily obtained and definitely very easily replaceable. Just like tonight!

At first I thought it was the rain.... then I thought maybe you were tired.... I've become too naive after a while. Its always like that with girlfriends, they never tell you who they wanna meet, especially when they know its someone you don't really want them to meet. 

Really strange that people know exactly when to call you out for drinks! Its like telepathy, somehow they know where you are... super convenient. Another theory could be that everything was obviously pre-arranged. 

Still being played like a sucker, just like my first did to me. Funnily enough, the only girlfriend I didn't feel this way with was the one I played with and dumped. 

How do guys become players? Bastards that use girls, dump them and move on? One way as I've found out, is because they have been treated the same way themselves. The cause of such behaviour is the target of such behaviour! Interesting, now that I've sat back and thought about it. Simply put: Girls maybe the ones who create guys who treat them like shit.

Guess you're gonna spend Saturday alone just like you've always wanted unless you can explain yourself and evidence of behavioural change is seen. 

Lol I love medicalising stuff.

The Dawn of a new Era.

Semester 2.

Already endocrinology notes are out on blackboard. Nearly everyone is back from the holidays and Jon is cooking fish downstairs. The good old life is back again!

Gaaaa I wanna start school and get everything going as quickly as possible. It suddenly dawned unto me that we're almost done with lectures and tutorials. The 'real' stuff is starting soon at the hospitals. 

Man... miss my darling already. For the last 4 days and 3 nights I have been going to sleep and waking up in her arms. LOL damn shiok la. Open my eyes first thing I see is Jasmin snoring beside me. Haiz. Back to staying over only on the weekends.

Huilin and her new hairstyle. Haha she looks damn chio now, except that she keeps pinning up her hair which makes her look sooooooo aunty. Hiaz. I think darker hair colours looks better on her. 

Mummy and sissy coming back tonight. Hope to see mummy before she leaves for China again. 

Ah ha. And a new plan to surprise my daddy when he next comes to Melbourne! Need Jasmin to help me with some information. Gonna force it out of her. Hahaha. Interrogation just like in Taken.

"Excuse me miss, are u here on holiday?"

"Me too! Oh hey the cabs here are very expensive! Wanna share?" 

Hahahaha Darling doesn't wanna go backpacking anymore now. LOL

The Conversation that Transpired on 15/7/09

Proof that girls are just waiting to be unleashed.... hahaha

Marc

5:56

haha does sex mean so much in our relationship

(L) delirious | dance with me tonight

5:57

ill kick you aside

YES

Marc

5:57

AWESOME just what i wanted to hear =DDDDD

lub u baby

Back with a Smile.

Hey Monash Meddies! Guess who's back! 

Back to own all of you for yet another semester! =D

And this time with a bigger smile than ever. =D =D =D

The Plan is Durian.

Frog leg porridge at Geylang then durians by the street side. I'm determined to try those orange ones that everyone talks about. 

Woah today was damn shiok. Absolutely nothing to do... bum around the house, went to West mall for lunch, (pig kidney mee sua), went to the library to browse books, bought 2 cheap VCDs. Hahaha I'm turning into a heartland uncle. 

Primeval was for my own viewing pleasure. Nobody around here appreciates such cheap flicks anymore. B-grade thriller movies, now a thing of the past. Zzzz.

Pirates of the Caribbean! Part 3... that's for my dad and sister to watch tonight. They've been talking about a movie night so... Needed something childish enough for the both of them, yet blockbuster enough to justify the cost of the CD. Hahaha.

Need to borrow a book at the library tomorrow. Hmmmm.

Insane? You haven't seen nothing yet!

Woohoo! Finished the first of my optional assignments! One less piece of work to worry about next semester. Pity I don't think I'll be able to complete the other by the end of the holidays. Or can I? Hahaha I really wanna enjoy the remaining days left before school starts. Yet I really want that head start over the others. Heh.

3 days left till I board the plane. After that its another 3 days left till school reopens. Mmmm. Technically I've got only 2 totally free days left till mummy comes home and takes charge of my life again. Son! Got pack your underwear into the bag or not? You need extra toothpaste? I got 10 tubes for you to bring. Need lens solution or not? Jasmin give you some right? I also wanna give you some! Nah take this extra jacket so you can wear it in the shower in case you feel cold.

Lol I love my mummy la. And my daddy. These few days he has been so great. Travelling around the island eating at places I wanna go. I can tell he has been really enjoying the past few dinners with my sister and me. Sometime I can sense when he really wants to have something, and I subtly give in to him. Hahaha he deserves it la that fat man. Like my mummy says, as long as when he opens the kitchen cabinet, "FOOD!" is there then can already. Hahaha hope he can come over and visit soon again in Melbourne, I wanna cook my new and improved rosemary lamb for him. The secret is to put water in the bottom tray so that the meat doesn't dry up!!! Hahaha I wanna cook with Jasmin again. So fun. 

Miss my darling girl so! Wanna give her a tummy rub. Hahaha wrestle with her and then hug her to sleep. Mmmm waking up in the morning and smelling her scent is the best!

Oh i mean SMELL. 

Optional ?!?

I just spent the last 3 hours doing my optional assignment!!! Yea I can't believe it myself. Its my freaking holiday and I'm working as though its due tomorrow. Better slow down haha.

Mmmm I really miss my darling Jasmin. Miss snuggling with her at night and all her tight hugs. Haiz that fat little monster, will get so see her soon! =D Lub you darling!

Too Soon.

Too soon the holidays will be over... yet another semester of chionging. Hope to finish my optional assignments before the holidays are over... lighten the load a little. Hmmm just starting to feel like I'm finally settling into the holiday. Too bad its nearly the end.

Checked out the new place, and I've got to say my mum scored yet another great buy. Don't know how come she has a knack for picking out these things. Nicely laid out for a 5 roomer. Hmmm don't think I'll be moving in anytime soon though... going back next week. Haiz.

Hmmm life in the years ahead certainly looks better now. At least finding a place next  year won't be much of a problem. =D

Don't make me carry your shit around.

Sometimes you're right. I fucking really don't care anymore. I'm tired of your unreasonable and half-baked accusations that I don't care. I'm tired of proving to you that I do. You don't remember any of the good stuff I've done for you anyways. The fact that you can make such tiresome and childish whims just goes to show that you've never thought through the life you've had. The goodness in it, and how life would be like when I'm gone. Fuck this alright, I'm SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING LIKE EVERY LITTLE THING THAT UPSETS YOU IS MY FAULT. 

I don't need this kinda shit from you, especially from you. Not after what I've done for you. And if you're still asking yourself what so great about the things I've done for you, then please really, stop wasting both our time. 

You are just about the most insecure girl I've ever met. And stop blaming it on the fact that you want to rely on someone for life. These are separate ideas altogether. I can be the most reliable person on earth and you will STILL feel LONELY, INSECURE and UNLOVED. 

Do you really want to know why I take so long to reply to such messages??? To stop myself from getting pissed off and saying mean stuff to you. The last straw was asking me to fly home early. OMG. Obviously zero thinking there, zero memory activation. And you say that I don't remember important stuff. 

Face it. Just because you tend to feel more insecure and lonely than other girls, DOES NOT equate to me being uncaring and un-loving. Now is the perfect time to think your life over, because I'm not going to let you insecurities weigh me down. I have a great family, great education, great results, great fencing potential and great friends. All the time I have given you, is all the time I can give you. My results are NOT going to suffer just because someone else's boyfriend has done "blah blah blah" for your friend and I have not. Bullshit, feed that conversation to the dogs. Firstly I can just about think of as many things someone else's girlfriend has done for my guy friends that you've not done for me. Secondly, why should I care? Its not as if they can be as good a medical student as I am. Yea I say this with pride. Nobody is on par with me until I say so myself. 

Next time I suggest you think twice before starting a conversation with yet another "You don't care!", before I really don't. 

This place sucks.

Why the heck did I come home for? Travel for 7 hours on a plane to experience crappy hot weather, catch a cold which triggered off my asthma, spend days on facebook and having absolutely nothing to do. On top of that the people who are back wanna just bum at home. Zzzz. 3 weeks in Singapore just to tighten up my braces.

Anyways, Left for Dead is an awesome game. Hahaha keep wanting to go out and play it with friends. Have and always will be a computer addict, haha though being in medicine really helps me with my self-control. What's wrong with being one of the hundred of Ah Bengs at LAN shops who spend days in front of flickering computer screens mindlessly shooting at virtual targets? They still enjoy themselves right? Compared to "educated" and "disciplined" medicine students who prefer to spend their holidays at home "relaxing" and letting off pent-up stress. Hahaha weird mentality my mum and friends share. Sitting at home feeling cooped up and "bo liao" = the more "educated" and less "neighbourhood ah beng" way of enjoying holidays? Hahaha I JUST WANNA BE A NEIGHBOURHOOD AH BENG MED STUDENT! Cannot ah? KNNBCCB! ahaha I love the way the ah beng's say that. Somehow I can't really say it the way they do. So fluent and full of character. LOL

Nothing to live for except waiting for friends to call and play lan. Then at the end of the trip remove braces. What else? Go out with friends? Got go out la, but how many times a week can you go out with your past classmates? 

Aiya I wanna go back to Melbourne and study la. Life was not as pointless back then. Hahaha Can't wait for clinical years. I'm sure I'll have a blast!